Monday, 25 July 2011

I'm so sick of trying.

So yeah I'm completely new to this scene and I'm not sure if what I've done is the right thing, it seems like it right now and I shall stick by my decision.

I'm just a normal girl, well no I'm not a normal girl, I know how my brain thinks isn't normal, it can't be. Everything revolves around my weight, I have no confidence because of my weight, I do not believe in myself because of my weight, I don't want to join new things etc because of my fucking weight. It completely rules me. For so long I've had all the thoughts imaginable running through my head and I just wish I had the determination and self-belief that I can sort this, that I can do this, I can become skinny, I can have a nice body, but it won't ever change!

I'm 17 and going to university in September, I just want to be happy in myself. I know a lot of you girls out there are experienced and know your stuff and I look up to you all as complete inspirations to me. I'm asking for help, for you to guide me and accept me, to help me along my journey. I want to do it, I want to be like you.

4 comments:

  1. hey there girly. welcome. :)
    everyone here will support you. its cool to know i inspire you. thank you! :)
    i have a few texting buddies that i met though blogger, so if you need me for that, i can help.

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  2. Aw thanks :) Everyone seems very nice, I'm looking forward to finding my way about and things! That's nice, I know who to turn to then, thank you :) Hope you are okay :)

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  3. hang in there lass... we have all been where you are... be strong and as long as we keep it safe we can reach our ultimate goals :) welcome along on the ride to thin... all of us here will support you, we need to stick together :)

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  4. Thank you thank you :) All the best for you :)

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