Cabbage Soup Diet.

Today I started Ramadan, the Muslim fasting tradition. No I'm not Muslim and tbh I think I'll only do it for today but I have a few Muslim friends, one is Egyptian actually and she's moving on Saturday to go back to Egypt for uni :( Basically it's all to do with her dad cos he caught her talking to guys etc, it's absolutely shit for her, she isn't really religious, but he's now making her wear her head scarf (hijab) and pray all the time! Little does he know that when she has prepare for praying she just runs the tap in the bathroom and just sits there etc. :/ So yeah we were talking about Ramadan and she asked me if I would do the first day with her, so that's what I've done :)

Been fasting, no food or drink since 1.23am and I can officially eat at 9.35pm tonight. Only another roughly 7 hours to go yaaay! I was thinking of doing it for longer but as I'm the only one doing it in my house it's tougher. I've decided that once I'm finished, I'm going to start the cabbage soup diet! Heard it's quite good for quick results which is what I need to pick me up and give me some god damn motivation!! :D

So I googled it and found the website: www.cabbage-soup-diet.com
I read all through the website and downloaded the free e-book! I think it normally costs but got a lil bargain! I'm ready for this, can't wait to see and feel the results. I think I'll post here after everyday, try keep on track, share my experiences.

Skinny days ahead...if only!

Tireddd!

Ugh I'm so tired! I was at first aid last night like out on duty so that was standing for 4 hours straight, I didn't have any casualties though woooo! I was up early this morning for a driving lesson, had such a good one today and I booked my test tonight for September, I can't wait to drive but soooo nervous about the test! 6 weeks today so hopefully I'll try calm my nerves a bit! And then I've been laying out in the sun with friends, not very often we get good weather in Scotland! Been trying to top up my tan from holiday!


Holiday holiday holiday! Take me back please! I only came back four weeks ago and already I've been hoping to go back in August but I've got uni in September and all the nights out and parties, just wouldn't work :(


Can't wait to move to the Dominican Republic when I'm older! I've been like 3 times before and I just absolutely love it! I'm even teaching myself Spanish which I'm pretty proud of tbh!


Think I'm gonna head to bed and get some sleep, need to tidy my room tomorrow, such a mess! :(


Trying to avoid the whole subject of food right now, it ain't good! Seen something about the Mary-Kate Olsen game on a blog though, might give it a try, seems pretty good to keep myself on track! Might post my scores up, keep track of how I'm getting on. I ain't giving up, that's for sure! :) 

I'm so sick of trying.

So yeah I'm completely new to this scene and I'm not sure if what I've done is the right thing, it seems like it right now and I shall stick by my decision.

I'm just a normal girl, well no I'm not a normal girl, I know how my brain thinks isn't normal, it can't be. Everything revolves around my weight, I have no confidence because of my weight, I do not believe in myself because of my weight, I don't want to join new things etc because of my fucking weight. It completely rules me. For so long I've had all the thoughts imaginable running through my head and I just wish I had the determination and self-belief that I can sort this, that I can do this, I can become skinny, I can have a nice body, but it won't ever change!

I'm 17 and going to university in September, I just want to be happy in myself. I know a lot of you girls out there are experienced and know your stuff and I look up to you all as complete inspirations to me. I'm asking for help, for you to guide me and accept me, to help me along my journey. I want to do it, I want to be like you.